A Rose by Any Other Name...

Ah, my in-laws have started already with their baby name suggestions. The top of their list? Eusebio and Ulysses. They are joking, of course, in their own little odd way, but they are really cute about it. Until they joke that if they don't like the name we pick, they'll just call our child by their own name. I banter back that I know they would never do something as selfish as giving our child an identity crisis because they don't like their name. tee hee hee. They are funny people. I know this journey has been difficult for them, because they keep getting their hopes up of having a grandchild, and they have to ride roller coaster like the rest of us. They don't know about Ben; they'd never be able to handle the stress and heartbreak so at least they were spared that.

They do, in fact, laughingly ask how little Eusebio is doing today, which I think is pretty funny. Mr. Right and I have names picked out, but we'll probably wait until (God willing) the baby is born before disclosing such information. Everyone seems to have an opinion about why every name sucks except the one they have in mind. I haven't told my mom yet. When/if I clear the first trimester, then we'll make the drive and tell her. We're not close, and she's an incredibly negative person so I don't tell her when I'm going though a cycle. Just need to surround myself with positive energy and good vibes; my mom is not the source for that. My aunt C, however, absolutely radiates positive energy. She called me this morning (like she does almost every morning) just to see how I feel, how Mr. R feels and what's going on. She's the most amazing woman I've ever met. She is a fantastic mom and I'm grateful she spent so much time with me as a kid - she really rubbed off (much to my mother's chagrin). When we first started trying, she asked if she could be an honorary grandmother. I said "What's with the honorary thing? You'll be a grandmother, fair and square!" And if this works, she really will be.

You know, I just want to make sure they're healthy and actually cross the finish line. That's my big concern. This Wednesday we'll have another ultrasound to check on the heartbeat. I know it's pretty early, and although they said it will definitely be there, everyone is different. Our little lentil could be a late bloomer, or could be fast for all I know. I've been drinking 20 oz. of vegetable juice everyday, loaded with vitamins, calcium, iron, beta-carotine - that's gotta help somehow.

I've felt slightly more queasy today, but it's really too mild to complain about. I also feel guilty especially with what Suspended is going through. Poor girl - I'm thinking about you and rooting for you. Hang in there. Besides, if I'm queasy, that's fantastic... Anything to confirm that I've got a wee one percolating down there.

Must go now and intake nutrition. Had homemade zucchini lasagna for lunch, and I'm craving more Italian for dinner. Mmmmm.... dinner. Bon Appetit and Sweet Dreams!